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Even though you're gone Your words still haunt me Echoing in the back of my mind Even though you're not here I hurt more each day Afraid you'll come back To make my life another hell Even though you're not present I know you're still there Teasing me of my childish ways As the tears well up in my eyes Even though you left I know you're still here Making my pillows so soggy From the rivers of tears I cry Even though you're gone And never to return One thing that's here to stay Are the scars that you have given me

I'm writing this poem I'm writing so freely I'm writing to let loose All my emotions I'm writing because I can't think straight And drawing won't help Yet somehow, words cure me Lost in my jungle of thoughts So disorganized Like a child's messy room Stuff scattered like leaves I'm writing this poem To free me of me I'm writing this poem Because I long to be free

Why do you pick on me? You call me something nasty everyday Why do you assault me? You threw markers at me yesterday Why do you threaten me? You wanted to fight after-school Why do you do these things? Is it just to be cool Why do you make fun of me? Even though it's all lies Why do you do these things That make me run home and cry? Why do you drag me down? Is it to lift yourself up? Or do you do these things Just to act real tough? Why do you do this? Oh well, continue I'm still going to be me ~ <3

The silence of the room holds so much more Sitting in my empty cell All alone in my empty cell Caged like a lion The more I listen, the crazier I get It's driving me crazier by the second The time ticks by, quieter than the silence And with every passing hour, it gets worse I now pace back and forth On the concrete floor The smell begging for me to calm down And I try to listen, but I can't I can only focus on the silence The silence that fills every corner of my cell Building up inside my mind Like a child building with Lego's Stacking them up one by one until they can no longer each the top The silence grows louder and louder Building

I remember that day like the back of my hand Our friendship was brand new Like an action figure out of it's plastic little cage We just started talking We laughed and joked We were careless and worry-free And I thought it would stay like that for as long as I stayed here Little did I know that was about to change! Secrets slipped Like an oil spill, spreading wherever land it's within it's reach You found out Along with everyone else And then, you stopped talking to me Like an elder sibling, ignoring the younger one because she found her "too annoying" And now, we don't even manage eye contact! Like I don't exist Like I'm miles away. A

The old,dull playground Once filled with cherished memories Now withered away By the pains of yesterday The swing set that took us Off to the sky Now rooted to the ground Surrounded by rust And dark like a winter's eve The playground that we climbed Filled with tears instead of laughter Falling apart right off its hinges Like my emotions form looking at it The once green grass Now reduced to a dying gray As it takes me to the last place to stop The merry go round Only merry with you It fell into a deep depression After the incident that took your life I turn to go Tears ripping in my eyes But something familiar catches it That stands out

An Unwanted Child One cannot express the emotions hidden inside The thoughts of suicide always cross her mind Each day she hides the fact that she has cried For no one must know why she has to hide She isolates herself from the outside world Not wanting to get close, in fear of abandonment But she still waits by the windowsill, all curled, Hoping, that someone will play Devil’s advocate Alone, she’s by herself clutching that teddy bear The one daddy had given her on Christmas Eve Now she stands, tears falling, screaming how it wasn’t fair How could he just choose her and up and leave? Call her “Mom.” He said